You may have passive interest in many things, which can lead you to read books and articles on those things, but your convenient and self-enclosed studies will be nothing but decorative and fruitless hobbies or wishful add-ons to your life if you are not engaging anywhere with strong intellectual and spiritual initiative toward your own originary inquiry, thinking, direct experiencing, realization and mastery.  You can squat on an area of interest for years without doing anything personally real about it.  This kind of personally stagnant complacency about any important evolutionary area, which may be anything from Existential Authenticity or Zen Enlightenment to Siddhayoga or the Sufi Way, is a colossal self-defeating stupidity, a lack of initiative.  Nevertheless, though this should be obvious to “interested” seekers who buy and read books on evolutionary subjects, they will find that Initiative is somehow elusive and confusing, no matter how much they recognize that they lack it and how many times they have gotten themselves upset trying to come up with it.  What seems to be the most needed therefore is a breakthrough insight into initiative that will help you get unstuck and on your way to valid and viable zones of personal realization, thus putting an end to your ongoing evolutionary failure, your inability to enter into higher ways of development and liberation from the ordinary human life of dull drifting toward a meaningless old age and death.

In the field of intellect, Initiative means that you will stop being an endlessly dabbling and sporadic reader, but will acquire all the books on the important subject, say, Mexican Nagualism as taught to Carlos Castaneda, and instead of reading them sequentially, you will read them all in parallel together in little significant sections from within chapters, trying to connect your own intuition or heightened awareness with what each parallel section is about.  You will thus spend perhaps two or more hours per evening in this total immersion in the subject of Mexican Nagualism.  You will also be intensely inquiring into the subject, asking questions of the Carlosoracle.com as simulated interactive discussions of yourself with Juan Matus, the Nagual Adept.  You will be keeping also perhaps a personal journal of your insights, experiments and experiences in Nagualism.  If there is someone close to you in life who shares your quest for the development into becoming a Nagual, you find yourself provoking intensely meaningful discussion with them about the issues and energies within and around the incredible subject of Nagualism.  You are not passively interested in the subject, but intelligently, creatively and experimentally engaged and thorough.  It is at least an area of comprehensive personal research that your inevitable Death tells you you have not got forever to understand and realize directly in your own being.  Your aim therefore is not to become another empty explainer who only has Nagual theory down, but rather a private, anonymous practitioner who fully appreciates, understands and makes best possible use of the theoretical material.  One is too seriously engaged intellectually and spiritually to be a mere academic scholar about Nagualism, Shamanism, Tibetan Yoga or the like.  Research is therefore even deeper and more extensive than that of an academic, plus infinitely more personally experimental and pragmatic.

In the field of emotion, Initiative means that one is passionately engaged and inspired in the area in question.  One feels an inward calling to be personally involved in the energies and events pertaining to one’s passionate enthusiasm for the subject.  If it is, say again, Nagual Seership, then one feels a powerful affinity and resonance with any and all persons and experts in realization of the pertinent accomplishments.  In fact, one feels tremendous respect and admiration for all the great Naguals of New Seership.  One feels a subtle connection with them in the Spirit.  Resonating with such proficient magical people, one can feel what they are about, one can feel/hear their thoughts, one is vibratorilly connected with the ways of Naguals in the world of the Spirit.  One has a profound rapport of Silent Knowledge about what it is all really about.  At the same time, one finds oneself avoiding like the plague any form of modern take-off spurious cults, healers or popular explainers who are obviously caught up in Tonal social expansion of themselves in the name of Nagualism rather than getting on with being real private and anonymous genuine Naguals.  One’s passion and inspiration is for the Spirit of Nagualism, not for social belonging, networking, gossiping or trying to have a following in the field of New Seership.  Freedom of the Spirit is one’s consummate passion, one’s exploration of the Unknown beyond all social silliness and vanity that have attached themselves to the subject.

In the field of action, Initiative means one is personally and directly engaged in a pragmatic journey in the field of one’s intense engagement in the important subject.  If it is Nagual Shamanism, one is again and again entering the solitary wilderness pathways of Voidwalking, Skywalking, Shamanistic State of Exploring the Unknown, as well as learning Dream Control, Stalking, Controlled Folly and other Nagual methods.  One is truly living as a non-social, free-spirited Warrior.  One is actively engaged in reshaping one’s personal existence into a magical vehicle that utilizes the Magical Passes (Tensegrity) to redeploy one’s personal energies into a new growing configuration of genuine Personal Power.  One is also learning to connect in useful, enhancing ways with the Allies, the Inorganic Beings, without getting entrapped in their involutionary world. 

When Initiative is thus activated in all three of your zones of intellect, emotion and action, you have genuine free-will or Intent, which is the pure directedness and impeccability of the Spirit. You are no longer a biological robot, a pseudo-free chooser, a normal of spiritually dead conformity to society, a mere daydreaming spiritual dilettante or an argumentative and criticizing crank seeking attention.  With Initiative you are becoming a spiritual realizer instead of a self-enclosed normal with a few spiritual books you read occasionally.  With Initiative you are no longer complacently drifting as another societal sheep being led over the collective cliff by the lying and evil outer government.  With Initiative you are no longer trying to please your relatives about what you do, nor do you feel you have to be constantly reporting your urgently significant life-events to them.  You discover that you can be compassionate and kind toward relatives and associates without clinging or conforming, without trying to get them on a spiritual path and without trying to share your real journey with them, which remains your secretly expanding inner life and personal regeneration.  So Initiative is the stealthy overthrow of your old conditioning and self-harming habits of dull normalcy.  It is energetical and magical revolutionary self-change that plugs you into an extraordinary destiny beyond the useless and deluded hopes, fears, imaginings and pretences of collective physical humanity.  With Initiative you are no longer a member of society.  Instead you are a warrior-traveler, a rogue individual wandered off from the common herd.

Your awakening and emergent Initiative is not confusing or inaccessible; it is the natural, powerful and intentional energy of your Spirit.  It is, in fact, an ever more clear and firm set of new magical and spiritual purposes you are pursuing ever more intelligently, passionately and actively in your new life, your real life, beyond your old, false and disappointing normal life.  Wherever you are psychically asleep, a victim of mass hypnosis and just another spiritual shopper/consumer with passive interests, hobbies and self-enclosed dead studies, your obvious lack of Initiative is not a puzzle, but a stupid cop-out where you are letting yourself drift into waste of your life.  It is not an intellectual or brain problem so much as it is an urgent need for a real awakening of spiritual aspiration, direction and adventure.  Any area of your evolution where you are merely passively interested and self-defensive is just part of what is killing you.

©2005 Kevalin Absoluto