You may think I am in conflict with you; I am not.  You may think I am in agreement with you; I am not.  Higher contact with more advanced people cannot happen for you as long as you want to drag them down to your level where you see them as conforming or failing to conform to your own sense of spiritual authority where you imagine you possess the best opinion possible of all leading spiritual figures.  There is simply nothing real nor important about agreement or conflict with you.

You are presently motivated in a secondary way about your need for social influence, to have more money or to acquire exciting new sex-partners.  These secondary drives are perfectly natural for you, but you should not disguise them as aspiration for higher contact or supernormal development.  For a moment, let’s discuss your sex problem.  You should have learned by now that to have sex where there is no real and intelligent intimacy or heartfelt affection is nothing but a preliminary life-experiment rather than an actual fulfillment.  People often have to make a lot of such experiments in order to learn that they deeply want something more meaningful and vibrant in their sex life.  Therefore, superficial contradictory standards of “loyal monogamy” on the one hand or “free sex” on the other hand are equally superficial.  For you to learn a deeply real, intimate and spiritually dynamic approach to just sex alone does not require your superficial urge to have conflict with spiritual leaders nor will your hidden urge to throw yourself at someone’s feet and get relieved of your responsibilities and frustrations do anything real.  How are you going to really understand higher development and Self-realization when you do not even know what sex is really about?

A limited mental attitude cannot grasp unlimited things.  You have become doubting and argumentative toward spiritual subjects because you have entrusted your spiritual potential to your outer physical brain with which you read books on occult, spiritual, Divine and cosmic subjects and make interpretations.  On the basis of what is in your brain, coupled with your background social, financial and sexual failures or frustrations, you want me or other spiritual beings to cooperate with you.  What you really need is to take a leap in consciousness beyond your usual motives and opinions, thus shifting into an internal position where you can be taught.  No teacher can help you until you are in a position of learning.

Think now what learning is really about.  It is not about you becoming a leading spiritual influencer who is gaining money and sex from it.  Learning is about making more real and meaningful use of your personal time.  You need to develop higher energies and vibrations in your body and mind, for instance.  This will require more serious application of Mantra and Yoga concentration, meditation and Samadhi than anything you have done so far.  In spite of your lofty ideas, your personal existence is rather crude and undeveloped.  Why is this?  Because you waste so much of your time in false and meaningless things of the outer social world of empty talk and entertainment.

Arguing with your insane mind on a directly personal level would itself be an act of insanity.  That is why no truly real and developed teacher would give you access to them.  In fact, that is how you can know that a “spiritual guide” is false, for anyone who would give you direct personal relationship would by definition be false, a mere charlatan.  Your task at this time is therefore to cure yourself of your present insanity you have formed in and around your imaginary spirituality.  This insanity is the mental condition of your present proud and argumentative ego, which ego is founded on your stupid belief that labels, habits, money, possessions, book-learning and fleeting experiences all add-up to a real and permanent self.

Spiritual development, you need to learn, is not the outcome of winning some philosophical debate with this or that popular spiritual leader.  Spiritual development is not a competition between spiritual authorities, schools and traditions.  This is the core of your present problem.  You want to find an answer, a teaching, that will hit you so hard and give you so much faith that you will not need better answers or teachings, which means you want an end to the Learning Process rather than a beginning.  When you can feel that learning is over, that you reached the Ultimate Teaching or Way, you can be totally authoritative and dogmatic.  To make a real beginning in learning, stop trying to reach a final answer, a final teaching, a final conclusion.  Learn how to keep learning, growing and maturing as a solid, down-to-Earth, natural and real human being.  Be a cosmic explorer of anonymous freedom.  Start looking far beyond your present limits. 

I am not your problem; you are your problem.